Online Dating Sucks

So... my first post might really piss you off... because you are thinking... what the heck?  I have accounts on eharmony.com, match.com, ihatebeingsingle.com.  And this single awkward vegan just bashed online dating.  How can she do that?  What the hell is wrong with her?

Well.. I'll tell you what.  Tonight I went out with a guy that I met on craigslist.  I know what you are thinking.  Raise your eyebrows at me... judge me for throwing caution to the wind.  But look, I emailed him and asked if he was a craigslist killer and he said no.  So, I thought it would be safe.  His post said, 38 year old vegan - looking for friendship.  We were emailing back and forth.  Things were exciting.  I even checked my email at work (which is really bending the rules for me, but I did it).  It was exciting.  I felt like a middle schooler again.  Oooo... what did he say today?  I have to check.  Gross.

So, the plan was to meet tonight.  Get a bite to eat and check out a bookstore.  Please note that I was very smart and chose a public location, hence my name of single awkward vegan - not single stupid vegan.  Good god.  Could it have been a more awkward night???? NO!

Am I judgemental?  Yes!  Do I care about the feelings of another human being?  Yes!  So, here I was... diagnosing this man that sat across the table from me.  He was nice, polite, but extremely awkward.  I almost thought he should write this blog.  I had to carry the whole conversation, we had nothing in common.  What was I thinking?  Meeting someone in real life that I had met online?  We went to the bookstore.  I tried my best to be polite, looked at a few things and then said I had to get home to my kiddos.  What are the juicy details?  Nothing.  Except the fact that I will probably have to change my phone number now.

I feel bad for people that are single.  It really sucks.  My ex thinks this is some great adventure, being single again.  Either he's smoking crack or it's different from the male side of the table.  I guess it depends what you are hoping to get out of it..

This little vegan went dating....

Welcome to my world... the world of a single awkward vegan.  That's right.   Maybe you're here because you are intrigued with the life of a vegan, maybe you are here because you are also awkward, maybe you are here because you are up in the middle of the night surfing the internet - only to find yourself randomly on this page.  Well... whoever you are... welcome.

So... who exactly am I?  Let's start with who I'm not.  I'm not the kind of girl who feel comfortable in a bar (I don't drink), I'm not the girl that can chat it up with anyone she meets, I'm not the girl that has slept with more people than fingers on my hand (in fact, hold up one finger and you've got the right answer), I'm not someone that is thrilled with the idea of being thirty, flirty and fun.

I have amazing children and was married to someone that wanted a life I didn't.  We're apart and I am now a single awkward vegan.

I am intelligent, funny (in a very sarcastic way) and don't feel like wasting my time.  What choices do I have?  Go online to meet a guy?  Match.com?  Eharmony.com?  Well, that's just not good enough.  I don't want that to be the way I meet the man of my dreams.  So... I am choosing a different path.  One without the ridiculous world of online dating.

I'm not sure what will happen, but it is fair to say that I need a place to vent my thoughts.  I don't care if you read this, I don't care if you agree with me.  I'm writing for all of those wonderful people out there that do not fit the mold.  If you are also awkward - I salute you.